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..ALHAMDULILLAH..

this is the only word that i can say for now..all my hardships and my hardwork has finally been paid..thanks to Allah s.w.t.

* dec 11th 2009, at 1.30am *

was listening to namida no theme by shinji kakijima when suddenly papa's smile came across my mind..
n the teary part started to begin...HAHA.
i was scared of seeing my own results..i cudnt take the risk of getting kicked out to branch,i cudnt imagine myself looking at papa's face if i told him that i didnt get the minimum cgpa needed for fast-tracker,n WORSE,i certainly dont want to let him down...

naz im-ed me thru fb,asking bout my results,n i told her i didnt check it yet..sobb-ingly,i told her how i felt,n she gave me lotsa kata2 smgt to cheer me up..tengs nazz..ur kindness is very much appreciated!hehee...nex sem ak blanje jambuu pak cik yg ko suke sgt tu..ehehhee..

back to the story..hehe..i was throbbing like crazy [ok,sounds like sum1 has just confess his love to me] hhahaa...but then,it was a really nervousing moment where i cud feel my legs wobbled..owhh..
results turned my legs to jelly!haha..

tried to bukak the student portal for like zillion times to check my rsults,unfortunately,it kept on going
"the page cannot be displayed " ..huhh...dhla tgh nervous cam nk gile..hadoii..n finally with Allah's will,dpt jgk msk student portal tuu..ms tu dh pkul 2pg kot..ahhaha...ke lebih?ntah..lupe!

dengan lafaz bismillahirrahmanirrahimm....i typed my id num and my ic num,n once again,afta reciting prayers,i submitted it..n the first word that came into my eyes was " keputusan = AD [Anugerah Dekan] " i was shaking my head,rubbing my eyes with the back of my palm and still,the same word i saw..meaning i wasnt dreaming or mis-seeing or whatever things laa that cud might happen to a clumsy girl like me..hoho..

seconds after that,tears started to roll down my cheeks and woke my sis up..[eheh..sory sis!] although she was a bit blur when i told her bout my results,at least u did open up ur eyes and witnessed every single tears in me..hehee..

then,i rushed to papa's room..knocked the door and papa was asking

papa = "sapoo..????" [he might thought i was a burglar or something] haha..
me = "ninyyyy..." dgn nada agak sayuu..hehe..

he opened the door and when he looked at me with all the tears,he frowned and asked me

papa = "gapo..??" [in daze]
me = "cek dohhh....heeee..."
papa = "ohh...gano?buleh?"
me = "emm!" [nodding]
papa = "haaa...ke papa oyap dohh..nyo bulehh ehh..." [smiling proudly perhaps]

and i hugged papa while crying..heee...umi yg ketiduran suddenly woke up..n i hugged her too..owhh..i love this hugging moments!hekhek =p terasa disayangi gituu!awww2! hekhek..


tired of crying,tired of waiting the lembab-yet-bermasaalah pny student portal,finally..i went to bed..hehe..and when i was on my bed,i cudnt sleep well enough..i didnt know why..perhaps i was still shocked of getting dean's list..haha..alhamdulillah..


.hurt my back.

.off to bed.




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