lagi lagi gila gila

uh great.

just got back from kelmaju.

kawan papa pny kdai..so mayb dpt murah cket kot..haha

hp tu.....i left it there..to be repaired

hope sempat siap this week..

cuz nex week i'll b shifting to puncak..again!

hahahaa...

so as for now,im using my old phone..yg giler hang jugakk..huih..

i cnt even text anyone..but the weird thing is i can make a phone call!

aiyohh..gilaa kaa..mau cpt abes krdt ak..hahaa...tawfiq!i nid u for t04..ahahhahaa...juz kdim dude

i dun care how much i hav to pay,just let them do their job..i just want my phone to be normal and well-functioned..thats all..



keyboard off!

p/s - it's abnormal when ur phone cant text anyone.

: till then :

xpress music 5610

kejap lg nk pi kdai phone..

nk repair fon sy yg giler x terkata ini.

hope dpt solve the kegilaan in my fon.

wish me luck!




.out.



p/s - feel like buying a new one..ohh dream on!



: till then :

shop shop

saya si shopaholic?

yes i am.

im not a hypocrite nor a two-faced girl.

im niny..just niny..

n i admit that i love shopping damn much.

as for this semester break,i have bought :

• 7 shirts
  
• a white pants [i want this sooo bad n kept searching for it for almost a month,n i finally have it!thanks umi ]
• a b.u.m shoes [ mggantikan the silver one ]
  
• a 2-inch-flip flop [ ini mjd kebiasaan sy yg giler flip flop ]
  
• cute socks from sox world [ini idea papa..die kate stokin yg ade jari2 tuu cute]

i want moreee n moreee bajuuuu..!!hehee...new clothes give me new spirits..but apart from being a shopaholic,i shud hav just think bout those yg xmampuu..hmm..guess i shud start saving now [cehh..mcmla pkai duit sdiri] hahaha..

i will shop till i drop this week..cuz im not gonna do it anymore when im in puncak..hahaa..so,shopping laa puas2 before getting jailed at puncak..ahahhaa..



im off

p/s - pokaila bakal suami sy nanti..haha..juz kdim honey

: till then :

i love u student portal >>> [wat the heck]

'n' to the 'e' to the 'r' to the 'v' to the 'o' to the 'u' to the 's'

there u hav it!

i know it's like freaking blurr when u read it the first time,but hey!it's good to exercise ur eye muscles and brain back..after a month and a half of semester break [utk bdk2 uitm n skutu dgnnya]

writing bout semester break,it gives me this kind-of-negative feelings cuz i kinda forget certain things in FAR..n so do MGT..haiyohh..

enough of that.

the latest prob im facing now is

why cant i check my room num for the next semester when everybody else can?it's freaking weird to know that everyone in my soon-to-be house[or room?] dah tau diorg pny blik when im not..uhh..x aciiii!

ohh my 'deary' student portal,do u hate me that much?!

uhhhhhhh...

ok fine!i wont talk bad bout u nemore..i know i used to say that u r so lembab when i was trying to check my results that day..

a BIG sorry then!

puas hati?

p/s - i've gone crazy with this stupid[who0opsiee..=D] student portal.

n that answers why im talking to it eventho it's not even alive.

im outta here

: till then :

ishonitaii...=]

just finished watching this japanese drama..recommended by my ex-roomate,suraya hani..haha..tengs su!

TAIYOU NO UTA..a.k.a A SONG TO THE SUN..can be categorized as sad drama series..the plot is more likely to 1 litre of tears,.to those who have watched 1 litre of tears,then plis do watch this story as well..as erika sawajiri plays the character of amane kaoru..she's the heroin beb!i like her..she's sweet..heee..eventho in reality,sakit matakuuu melihat caranya berpakain..ahhahaa...

actually,cite ni dah lama sbenarnye..perhaps all of u da tgk dah cite tu..it's just me yg br je nk tgk..ahahhaa..after all,hero die pun boleh tahann..woot2.. o_O

hekhek..well,first time tgk muke die,cam x hot sgt..then as i watched it,episodes by episodes,i realized die mmg boleyy tahann laa..the way he acts,the way he deals with unexpected things in his life makes him hotter than ever..owh..[gilee ke pe aku ni] dun worry baybee,u're still in my heart..hehe..

this is the synopsis of the story..i took it from the wikipedia..just to share it with u guys..hehe..

While working at a seaside inn with his high school buddies, Fujishiro Koji meets Kaoru Amane, a street musician. Kaoru is suffering from an incurable disease called XP (xeroderma pigmentosum), and can’t be exposed to the sun. Under the sun, the two would never have met. Still, destiny brings the two together. Since the day he suddenly lost his job, Koji has lost sight of his dreams. But when he meets Kaoru, who is making positive efforts to become a singer, Koji regains his long-forgotten passion for music.




hehe,..enjoy the drama peeps!






: till then :

lapar lapar lapar...makan makan!

im planning of :

• renewing my identity card [ic]..hey!im 18 already..since 2 months ago?eheh.

cnt wait to see my whole new ic.with my so-called new look..wat da fish..yelaa..u guys asyik gelakkan my ic je..i know i look like a mak datin with the 'royal' hair of mine,n the 'royal' tudung of that wisma persekutuan.uhh!! ok,im gonna do it fast,before my precious pimples muncul..ahahah

• 'jogging' with the babes n my baby..ahah..

i know he will be like this when i ask him "oo0o0o joging...'joging' la sgt kann..." hehee..u know me well,baybeh!ahhahaa...alaaa...bleh photoshoot pe..kam2??hahaha...

• eating ns lemak TC..owh..havent touch it since i came home last month..ahahhaa..

owh.i have this crave of eating their sambal sotong and daging..yummmm2...owh...it's unique cuz normally when we heard of ns lemak,it wil be like,a plain rice with smbal sotong,udang,kerang,ikan blis...and whatsoever but not sambal daging![it's not serunding ok..we kelantanese called the serunding as sambal daging]

adakah ini menunjukkan saya lapar teramat?


hmm....




im off




: till then :

gunalah pantene hair fall control..utk mbotakkan lg kpala anda!oyeahh..

boring.

ingt nk post gmbr2 ms dkat resort aritu.

tp cam malas.

hehe.

im still da same old me.

the malas me.

ahah.

nk tgk jgk?

silela tgk kat fb saya.

dan.

kenapa sy taip begini?.

kerana nak pnjgkan blog.

mcm tahix saja.

sy tahu.

p/s - im getting bald here..yun nam i need u!

im off.





: till then :

sleep.aircond,camping.my baby!

jingg gala ka jing gajing jing gala gajing gajing..swakk2!heyy!


*doing the ahmad albab's dance*


face this people!

im not insane,im not crazy,im not gonna be insane,and im not gonna b crazy.

this is what i'll be when i cudnt get enuf sleep.

ya right.uh!

went to bed at 2.00 am ++..yes,dont say anything.i know it's damn early n supposedly i should've get too much of sleep.but here's the fact.I DONT!

cuz i had to wake up early this morning cuz papa said pakcik2 or abg2 will come to my house utk service-kan segala aircond yg ada di rumah ini.

or else,mereka2 itu akan terpegun melihat saya ber-kuak lentang di katil biru super single itu.

kenapa sy tidur awal?

it was all bcause of the stupid camp.uhh..

no no..im not going for a camp or something..i had enuf of this camping thingy..im sorry kesatria.ahah

the thing is,my bayb is the one who's going for a camp.

he's just finished his last paper like the day before yesterday,n he's going for a camp this morning..n he didnt even get the chance to enjoy himself afta the finals yet.owh..miat itu teramatlah kejam.

i cnt imagine if i were to be him..br je lps abes final,dh kena turun pegi camping..aiyohh..

hope he's having fun there..enjoy urself with the insects dear!ahah.



im off



: till then :

ayuh kita berpantun!wat da heck..?

tonite?webcam-ing wif my kura2 tersayangg..hakhak..

last night,slept at 5.00 am ++..webcam-ing and chatting wif him..all nite long..ahhahaa..
i miss him like crazyyy ok...
cuz he's been soooo busy wif his finals for the past 2 weeks..n now,he's done with it!im happpy for u baybehh!heheee...

it was my turn to wait for him..yeaa,i admit that my finals were longer than urs..it's like..3 weeks or something?aaahh..nevermind..2 weeks of being so lonely and boring without having anyone to msg with was likeeee really crazzy!uhh...i was trying to put myself in his shoes,n thank God,i didnt end up at hospital sakit jiwa..hahahahaa..syukurr..






stomach is bloating.
feel like farting.
feel like burping.
yey!




p/s - that's the pantun of the day..ahah!



im off!




: till then :

hapy BORN-day..baaa baaa black sheep! =D

..khas utk MOHD EQBAL..

dec 18th 2009,genaplah usia 18 thn buat my darlim yg kecil molek itu...kecil tp cute dan cumil gituu!!ahahahaa...[bodek2]

daaa boleyy tgk cite2 adults daa...wakkakaka..juz kdim..i wasnt supporting him ok..just for a joke,to tell u that he is already 18..u know all those adults scene are written 18sg,18sx or whatsoever alphabet..ahhahaa...dont get me wrong ok..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY my honey po!

[note that,the name honey po is given to him by me from the character of 'PO' in my used-to-be fav tv programs..TELETUBBIES...hakhak..]

alaa..yg kaler merahhh n yg paling kecil dan CUMIL itu..hahahahaa...it suits u well sayang..=D

just wanna go thru back the memories we shared together..all the ups and downs we've been thru..owhh...

• thanks for giving ur love n heart to me..hoho
• thanks for being there for me especially when i need u the most..
• thanks for being so honest with me..eventho sumtimes it's quite hard for me to accept it..but what can i say,honesty is the best policy..im glad u have that in u!
• thanks for teaching me how to use the clutch..[u know how 'kalut' i am when handling the clutch]
• thanks for calming me when i was scolded by umi..sy nakal,yey!ahhahaa
  
• thanks for teaching me how to play bowling
• thanks for always try to find the lightest bowling ball for me,cuz u know i cnt hold heavy things,cuz my hand will get shaky and bla3..ahhaha
  
• thanks for saving me n my sis from getting attacked by a snake..i know u're not into snakes,but the way u act,it shows how much u love me..u put ur feelings away just to make sure that i was save from the snakes..
• thanks for the surprise u gave me at the lcct..i didnt expect u wud do it for me..
• thanks for lending me ur shoulder while we were watching movies at tgv seremban..i got scared,i mean too scared til i accidentally push ur shoulder like a couple of times..[it's weird, i know,u get scared,u push sum1's else shoulder..ahaha..what the fish]
• thanks for the little kura2 u gave me..i named it "tott" from the character of wonderpets..u know,tott the tortoise!hahaha
• thanks for always listen to my 'sound effect'..hehee..[burping and whatsoever]
• thanks for accepting me just the way i am..
• thanks for 'jogging' with me..eventho i was walking all the time,n u kept on saying "cam ni rupenye bdk pompuan joging" heeee...
  
• thanks for the watch u gave me..[too sad,it's not functioning well anymore..sorry baby..=( ]
• thanks for the not-so-bangle u gave me..im wearing it now,n i never take it off from my wrist..it'll always be at my wrist...forever
• thanks cuz u're willing to walk and shop with me for hours,u know im a shopaholic!eheh..
• thanks for taking care of the beans that i asked u to plant..
  

and lastly,thank you for everything,including the one i didnt mention up there..ahahaa..kalau ade la..hehhee...

tooku hanareteru hodo ni,
chikaku ni kanjiteru

i like this japanese quotes..i told u this once,but im not sure whether u still rmbr the meaning or not..if xtau,msg la sy ye..x msg i sekeh2,pulah2,puk2,nga plepim2 u nati..ahahhahaa..[kejam molep]


ingt nk post gmbr2 kitorang,tp cam malas plak..hahaha..nantila nex time ye..hahaaa







: till then :

.sleepover.

.tomorrow.

will be at perdana resort for a sleepover..ahah!

just the four us..hee..[isn't it great if my dalinkk kura2 can join us..sigh]

mauu njoy sama itu laut,pasir,layang2,dan semuaaaa...hahaaha

and not forgetting,photo shoot!eheh..

i love beaches.FULLSTOP.

: til then :

satu ke-careless-an...like always

*sunday,dec 13th 2009*

hadoiii..

just finished checking the academic calendar at student portal..n guess what,pendaftaran kolej will b on the 2nd of january,n my flite ticket is on the 27th of dec!oooookkaayy......the gap is like almost a week..more like 6 days..aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh...what am i going to do in that '6days'..???if only the flite tickets are just like the bus tickets..they can just sell the tickets to others..uhh..im thinking of doing the same thing,but what to do..aaaaaaaaahhh...and if only i can just postponed my flite dates..if airasia mmg langsung x boleyyy..!huihh..payoh baso sumgoh..hahaha..

im not sure of firefly's..hrp2 bleh postpone..huhu..if not,there will only b two choices..it's either :

a) burn the ticket and buy a new one [satu pembaziran]
b) have a 6-dull yet boring-days in kl at my aunt's house..owhh..[teramatlah bosan]

hmm..


*monday,dec 14th 2009*


yeyyyyyyyy!!!!

papa said that he already postponed my flite ticket to 2nd of jan by just adding RM53..ke RM58?ahh....lupekan!yg pnting.....i can stay here in kb for at least a week longer!fuhh...satuuu kepuasann bg telingakuuu mendengar berita itu..hoho..

tengss papa!heheee =D sayangg papaa bangat2!hehe..n sorry for being too careless cuz i read the wrong calendar..ehhee..damn you UITM!for the ayt yg mengelirukan..eheh..sorry..didnt mean to menyumpah,but at least i didnt say those four letter words like the 'f' word and the 's' word..

n yes,it wasnt uitm's fault..think it was me......kot!!ahhahahahaaa

sayaarrr memangggg kelingg ling ling ling...




: till then :

butterflies-in-stomach scene =]

..ALHAMDULILLAH..

this is the only word that i can say for now..all my hardships and my hardwork has finally been paid..thanks to Allah s.w.t.

* dec 11th 2009, at 1.30am *

was listening to namida no theme by shinji kakijima when suddenly papa's smile came across my mind..
n the teary part started to begin...HAHA.
i was scared of seeing my own results..i cudnt take the risk of getting kicked out to branch,i cudnt imagine myself looking at papa's face if i told him that i didnt get the minimum cgpa needed for fast-tracker,n WORSE,i certainly dont want to let him down...

naz im-ed me thru fb,asking bout my results,n i told her i didnt check it yet..sobb-ingly,i told her how i felt,n she gave me lotsa kata2 smgt to cheer me up..tengs nazz..ur kindness is very much appreciated!hehee...nex sem ak blanje jambuu pak cik yg ko suke sgt tu..ehehhee..

back to the story..hehe..i was throbbing like crazy [ok,sounds like sum1 has just confess his love to me] hhahaa...but then,it was a really nervousing moment where i cud feel my legs wobbled..owhh..
results turned my legs to jelly!haha..

tried to bukak the student portal for like zillion times to check my rsults,unfortunately,it kept on going
"the page cannot be displayed " ..huhh...dhla tgh nervous cam nk gile..hadoii..n finally with Allah's will,dpt jgk msk student portal tuu..ms tu dh pkul 2pg kot..ahhaha...ke lebih?ntah..lupe!

dengan lafaz bismillahirrahmanirrahimm....i typed my id num and my ic num,n once again,afta reciting prayers,i submitted it..n the first word that came into my eyes was " keputusan = AD [Anugerah Dekan] " i was shaking my head,rubbing my eyes with the back of my palm and still,the same word i saw..meaning i wasnt dreaming or mis-seeing or whatever things laa that cud might happen to a clumsy girl like me..hoho..

seconds after that,tears started to roll down my cheeks and woke my sis up..[eheh..sory sis!] although she was a bit blur when i told her bout my results,at least u did open up ur eyes and witnessed every single tears in me..hehee..

then,i rushed to papa's room..knocked the door and papa was asking

papa = "sapoo..????" [he might thought i was a burglar or something] haha..
me = "ninyyyy..." dgn nada agak sayuu..hehe..

he opened the door and when he looked at me with all the tears,he frowned and asked me

papa = "gapo..??" [in daze]
me = "cek dohhh....heeee..."
papa = "ohh...gano?buleh?"
me = "emm!" [nodding]
papa = "haaa...ke papa oyap dohh..nyo bulehh ehh..." [smiling proudly perhaps]

and i hugged papa while crying..heee...umi yg ketiduran suddenly woke up..n i hugged her too..owhh..i love this hugging moments!hekhek =p terasa disayangi gituu!awww2! hekhek..


tired of crying,tired of waiting the lembab-yet-bermasaalah pny student portal,finally..i went to bed..hehe..and when i was on my bed,i cudnt sleep well enough..i didnt know why..perhaps i was still shocked of getting dean's list..haha..alhamdulillah..


.hurt my back.

.off to bed.




: till then :

everything.everyone.

booo..ooo...oooo..oooo...ringgggggggg!!!!!

huhhh.......there u go..!!i've finally poured it out..hahaa..

why does my life now has to be sooooooooooooooooo empty?

the word 'empty' means that im damn boring..it's not that im losing sum1 i love [oh no no no..] we're still 2gether..up until now..alhamdulillah..heeee...

despite all that boring thingy,i cud hear my results are calling and waving me now..i dunno what it's going to be..whether it's going to be a success,or a failure..nauzubillahiminzalikk..i will accept my results just the way it is..hoping that it cud be a success..not a failure..cuz i blive,everything single thing that Allah s.w.t gives,is actually the best-estt thing for me..i know myself,yes i do..but Allah s.w.t knows me more than i do..it's scary to hear that ur granny dreamt of u getting kicked out of puncak while at the same time,u dreamt of re-taking the eco n mgt test [which is supposed to be taken by the part 2 - normal trackers] huuu...ya Allah,pls tell me that this will only be DREAMS that will never come into the reality life..amiiiiiinnn....

ok,enuf with the results..it's getting on my nerves now..haahaa..i cnt wait for this nov 27th..!!yes,i know it's hari raya haji,but there is sumtin bhind the date that makes me sooooo eager of it..hehe..

just finished replying comments on kucai's status on fb..haha..ok,they want me to blanja them at kopitiam..y me guys?look..im the only gal n u guys are all boys..so why not u guys take over my place n blanja me?hehe..c'mon guys..be a gentleman!ahahhahaa...=p [i'll b dead meat if they read this]

somehow,i kinda miss the babes..it's only 4 of us left in kb cuz everybdy just went back to their 'jail'..n i heard some of them will be coming back for this hari raya haji except for melim..huuuuu..i miss her a lot..her laughter,her 'hydrophillic',her pporah [who0psie..],hehee..juz kdim maa..heee...she said she's not gonna come back cuz her fam's gonna go there n celebrate the hari raya with her at gambang..huuu...i dunno when will i ever see her again..perhaps the next hols?hmmm...it's a bad thing to realize that the intersession [where all the normal trackers got hols when we,the fast trackers dont!] is just about to begin..we're gonna have a very short hols and i myself cudnt guaranteed if i ever gonna have a chance to meet her..I MISS YOU AMALEEN SHUKRI..we've been bestfriends since we're in form 1..n i cud still remember each n every bits of moments that we shared..our moments together will be cherished forever..n yes,we shared the same luck where we were forced to take courses that we didnt want by our parents.she's taking medic n me?yeah,im doing this accountancy thingy..but syukur alhamdulillah..cuz of papaa's berkat,im starting to accept this course just the way it is [still not gonna say that i like this course] hahaa...but bits by bits,my heart is starting to sincerely like this course..syukur n thanks to Allah s.w.t for this..

n yes,there were some shocking news bout my babess..it's an old news actually..it's just that im too bz with my life at puncak that i never have the chance to figure out bout it..n yes,this hols reveals everything..tengs to it..ahhaa..


.pen-off.

: till then :

: venue = seremban :

yipeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

final da abesssss!!now it's time to 'to4' balik ms utk tido n on9 bak kata tqah..hehee..

afta our last paper ended,which was ECO162,kami cabutttt ke sunway pyramid..

shop til we drop,tawaf satu sunway til my legs got cramped..

n sumtin happened that nite..smpai umh,cpt2 packing brg2 for our trip to miat+seremban..hehee...

actually,i was planning to give him a surprise sbg balasan[yg die buat surprise dkat lcct aritu]..

hehee..

then,malam tu tido kat umh flat taman paramount..

that place was pretty scary..n creepy..dgn tgga yg agak steep n berlumut..n gelap...mmg menakutkan! i wonder how kak mira [tunang abg amir] lives there..

honestly,it was an adventure for me to live there..but after all,i survived!ehhee..

that nite,i cudnt sleep well..kejap2 bgn..kejap2 bgn..[gelabah kot]

last2,bgn trus n dah xmo tido lg..[wak kik ati jah tido meta2...xnikmat] hahaa

at 930 am,kami bergerak ke lrt taman paramount,heading to kl sentral..

from there,naik ktm to nilai..smpai kat nilai..my roomate fetched us n went to miat..ehhee..

smpai di miat..the surprise began.

just let the surprise be a secret.hehe

then we had our lunch at mcD nilai..kidnap kura2 n trus ke mcD nilai..

afta that,we went back to miat to send him 'home'..haha..n i gave him three magic beans n asked him to plant it...


" take good care of it as if u're taking care of me.."


heeee.....

i want him to handle the magic beans with care hoping that he will not be lonely..bakal beans yg akn bercambah itu bernyawa n hidup seperti manusia yg memerlukan oxygen dan air..hehe..[wth?]

the next day,kami ke jusco seremban..met arif and this boy [dunno his name,sorry] n we went for a movie..at first,we planned on watching 2012[sedih cite meatball xde!sob2..],but then 2012 full!aiyoiii..so,cite 4th kind mjd pilihan..bapak 'best giler' ini citer..adoiyaii...rs myesal pun ade..haha..but i dun mind,as long as he's with me,cite yg boring pun jd best!hekhek =p

it's a gud thing that he didnt sleep during the movie wlupun cite agak boring..hahaaa..tp muka mengantok itu ttp ada!heheee..

then,we went to seremban parade..mkn dkat pesta thai..tomyam dia sodaaappp!hahaa...[dh pndai ckp nogori dah..akibat stay kat umh naz] wakakkakaaa



k la,dh mls nk type pnjg2..nk pi mandi dlu..



: till then :

words....

juz finished studying ais [for this evening only k]...mlm nanti continue bc lg..the 2nd quiz will be on this monday..bapak berdebar jantomku..4 chapters to be covered..teramatlah membebankan..

aiyoooii...x final lg staro nih..berap2..

just now,got a msg from papa..asking me to bk email cuz papa ckp die ada anta the cuti-sem-flight details...cnt wait to go homeeee!!weeeeeeeeeeee...

udah2..enuf of ur 'galop'-ness..final nai final!

but juz to let u know,air mata saya skali lg keluar..bukan keluar berdating ye..tp keluar cuz agak tersentuh by papa's words in the mail...he knows how hard i am now,struggling for this course..perhaps he felt guilty..n for sure,i dun want papa to feel that way..i love papa n i dun wan him to feel guilty of his decision[kepaksaan utk mgambil kos ini]..cuz i blive,for every words that papa said,msti ada sumtin behind the words..n that's why im here in puncak..

in the mail,papa said :

niny,

here is the firefly particulars, just in case you may need it.. dengar
khabar susoh accounts ...he..he..

kalu tok susoh, tak dok thrill lah jadi pandai seksok... [?]
everything that we encounter in our life for the first time will
always be difficult. Your lecturer that is teaching you accounts now -
he/she also had faced similiar experiences...

Remember always that you are good...must always be confident that you
will always find the answer .. It is the learning of overcoming such
difficulty or adversity that sets each one apart ... if reading 3
times is not enough, then put in 6 times... it is difficult now but
later on, it will be easier... exams are difficult because the
examiner wants to test your ability to think...if you dont do well
now, learn where you go wrong, step back to see what you should do to
overcome it and then put faith in your ability to execute it...sooner
or later, you will become very good ....

papa selalu kata...plan everything like a marathon runner..initially
keep a steady pace, find your strong points and your weak points, work
hard on your weak points whilst at the same time, hone on your strong
points as sharp as possible, there will be a few obstacles here and
there...the key is never throw up the towel, have faith in your
ability, always be confident of what you can do..the rest will come
naturally....

ok lah, ceramah motivasi setakat ni saja ... mr crab...he...he...


i dunno what's with the 'mr.crab' thing..
tp yg for sure,papa loves mr.crab!n i love patrick!hehee...




: till then :

..14345..

it's been quite a month[or more?] since i last menggila d blog ini..8 days left b4 the final begins..wish me luck!eheh..=] rite now,im not gonna tell u any hot and cold stories..just wanna post sumtin to sum1..

whatever happened here never meant to hurt u..
how could i cause u so much pain?
when i say im sorry..
will u bliv me?
when i say im sorry,
can u forgive me?

all the words i've come up with,
they're like gasoline on flames..
if i cud,i'd undo what i did wrong..

If I told you
I've been cleaning my soul
And if I promised you
I'll regain control
Will you open your door
And let me in?
Take me for who I am
And not for who I've been?

Who I've been...

When I say I'm sorry
Will you believe me?
Listen to my story
Say you wont leave me
When I say I'm sorry
Can you forgive me?
When I say I'll always be there
Will you believe?

this song is for u

.aishiteru.

secebis raya race utk dikongsi...

hmm...

sy keboringan..

mau stadi tp agak kemalasan krn x ada mood..

moodku = hav fun!

bongoks.final dah dkat tp msih mau njoy?

aduuiyaiii..

xsukee2!!

ohoh..


misi yg blum dselesaikan = hang out bsama kura2..

tp agak hepi sudaaa dpt raye wif him this year..wlupon no duit rayee..eheh..[baso gilo pitih]

but sokay,kasih saye sbg duit raye gtuuuu....awww2!


n a big tengsss to my besties for lending me ur ears to hear my probs n my ngepeks..HAHAHAA

as owez,the raya race was superbbbbb!!i love it the most!

gonna miss this..we'll do it again nex yer..aite?=]

ni pics 2nd day raya kat umh sue K..spot me!

ehehhh...


unfortunately,6 ahli xleh join,so it's only 8 of us..






: till then :

pressure = cirit birit + sakit kepala yg melampau

i feel so depressed right now...

i felt like i dont wanna go back to puncak anymore...

i just wanna stay here..having fun..fighting with my sis..that's way better than im staying in puncak,having a lot of pressure to carry on my back which i hardly can..

FAR 100..it's hard for me to understand it...i dunno why..but not when it comes to chemy,or physics or science..

tears will roll down on my cheeks each n every time i learn FAR 100..

i want my chemy back..='(

i want to see the experiment made by baby lilly over and over again..sy mau di 'beng2' oleh tcer chemy dkat mukherG..

i dun wanna look at the calculator anymore..n so do frank wood..

the pain im suffering gets deeper by days...

sumhow..i kinda lose all my spirit to work hard..i dunno what i want in my life..all i know is that,i miss chemy so bad..that if i were given a chance to switch FAR 100 to chemistry,i wud have done it earlier..

sometimes...people ask me "what do u want to be in the future?"

n i'll say " a chartered accountant"..eventho i know,i dont even wanna be IT..

i can lie to others by saying that i totally like FAR 100 and give the widest smile,but deep inside my heart,im tortured by it...

tiqah used to say that " kau ni mmg btl2 bdk sains la..otak bdk sains mmg berbeza dgn bdk sastera"

she's rite..totally rite..she can see the real brain of mine..that im not into numbers,and the whole art thingy..

im not into business,not into accounts,computers,maths,..

im still waiting for the miracle to happen each n evry day..reciting prayers so that Allah s.w.t will open my heart to accept AC 110 just the way it is..

every morning when i wakeup,i always tell my heart not to hate ac 110 but to love it...

i do all these things just for one reason...for papa..he wants me to b an accountant so bad that he didnt even give me chances to be with the science subjects...which i totally love..huuu...

i feel so happy n relieved knowing that all my friends out there are happy with what they're doing..sometimes,i hate to be me..i cnt stand for my own right..if i could,i wudnt have take this course..

it's a burden for me taking this course..but demi papa,i will do it..i'll try my best to like it..eventho i know the risk is high..as if im trying to kill the goose that laid a golden egg..

i wanna see the smile in papa's face like what i saw during my spm result came out last march 12th..i miss the smile..n his smgt to come to the anugerah sinar wawasan bcuz i was his first child to receive an award..normally,he will never go to any majlis that was held by the school..n he never has the heart to do so..

sometimes,i keep dreaming of my graduation day..imagining myself wearing a selempang[is it correct?] receiving anugerah naib cansellor..n tears of happiness are all over umi n papa's cheeks..how wonderful it wud be.....sob2...

i hope others can feel the same way like i do..to my FAR lecturer,i wish u cud put urself in my shoes,knowing how hard i am to understand and digest every single thing on FAR..im sorry if im a bit slow when it comes to FAR..n a big sorry for my friends in puncak especially fain,naz,farah and tqah for always menyusahkan korang utk ajar ak yg stil x faham2 sbjek itu..Im sorry for asking too much of out-of-the-box ques...smpai korang naik gila kdg2...huu...

ya ALLAH ya Rahman ya Rahim.....

please gimme the strength to carry on this..

to go through all the hardships..

and to face difficulties in learning AC 110's sbjects...

kasihanilah hamba-Mu yg kerdil ini...

I only do this for papa..

semoga keberkatan dari papa akan memberiku keajaiban..

AMIIIIIINNNNNN.......

the sweetness that lies in u...143..

im home...again!hahaha...

cnt wait for this year's raya..i dunno y..but i kinda have feelings that this year's goin to b a blast!hahahaa

today...buat temujanji dgn abg guwe yg berada di uniten ituu..utk pulang togeder2...hahaha...

flite kami pkul 340 pm..we promised to meet each other at ktm batu 3..then,head to kl sentral then akhirnya ke lcct..


* pkul 930++ am,ktm batu 3 *

me : [why is everbody's staring at me as if im an alien?]

then,i saw some of them asyik look thru the bags n the luggage that i brought along wif me..

then,i realized..rupa2nya mreka tkezut mlihat barang2 guwe yg bnyk itu..

[banyak kah?]

janji nga kupihs[my bro] nk jumpe kat ktm tu..

tggu pny tggu...smbil bersms dgn 2 jejaka yg ak sayangi..

dont get me wrong ok...

they're my bro n my kura2!hehee...

at last,smpai gak my bro..

bli tiket utk ke kl sentral...i cud say that if i were to calculate or to measure the distance that we've walked today,i think it had reached 3km with a cramped legs n hands akibat berdiri terlampau lama kat dlm ktm n memikul beg yg telampau berat..

n sorry pihs,bcuz of me u have to carry all those heavy bags yg i bwk..

i promis,nex time dh x nak bwk lg brg bnyk2..heee...

[bleh pcaya kahh?]

wallahualammm...

hhee...

* pkul 12++pm *

on our way to lcct...naik aerobus..instead of skybus..ahhahaa..

kupihs said he's gonna sleep 4 the entire pjalanan nk g ke lcct tu,
alih2...dh dpt adik yg bnyk mulot n mmg xtahu masa nk berhenti bercakap,
maka terpaksalah dia membuang masanya melayan karenah adiknya yg entah hapa2 itu td..hahaha...

* pkul 1++pm *

reached lcct..
jalan2 cr tmpt utk berehat..
cuz we're running out of energy..
so,we nid a place to rest ourselves b4 continue the journey til we reach kb..

then...si kura2 called..

kura2 : helo..tgh buat pe tu?
me : tgh tggu nk check in..kat lcct..
kura2 : oow...dh smpai ek?duk kat mn tu?kat terminal dia ek?
me : er....ye kot..[ak masih xlayak utk mjd gps terhebat di telipot]

then my bro and i went off utk mcri tmpt2 yg strategik utk brehat while searching for kdai yg mjual newspapers..[my bro was damn boring,so he wanted to read papers]

tgh jalan2....terlihat satu kelibat berpakaian serba kehitaman...
holding a black helmet..
dgn muka yg seolah2 tercari2 sesuatu...
alih2....terfikir sejenak..

me : [eh2...muka die ni,ade iras ngan si kura2..]

while pointing my fingers towards him..

kemudian...he turned back..

[agaknya die terdgr kata2 hati atau naluriku]

then,he smiled at me in all of a sudden..

i was like......."ookayy...whats that about?"

then i read something on his shirts...

tertera perkataan :






M.I.A.T









makkk aiiiiiiiiihh!!!it rily is KURAA2!!!OMG...

i was quite speechless when i finally knew that it was really him..

i thot it was only a clone of him..heheee...[akibat 3bulan tidak bertemu]



rupa2nya....die dh plan awal2 nk g lcct cuz he knew i'll be there with my bro..
agak terharu cuz he never went this far to meet me..

it was his first time riding alone to lcct..dhla xtau jalan,main ikut signboard je..

n i've spent like an hour with him..snapping pics..enjoying moments wlupon daku agak speeechless ketika itu..

kerana masih terkejut besar cuz i never thot that he wud go there just to wave me gudbye at the airport..

KAMU,tengs a bunch for accompany-ing me dkat lcct td time kupihs pegi smayang..
KAMU masih si kura2 yg sama..
the small yet adorable u..im lovin ittt...heheee